A New World
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Saturday, May 20, 2006
xx 10:25 PM xx
Alright... this is the main topic that has been surfacing like countless of times... honestly... i think i need something or someone to remove this 'low' thing...
Lets start of with my 1 week of sch... have to see Mr Kwang yesterday ( yes... 4A student seeing Mr Kwang equates to no good thing... ) Sure enough... i was anticipating when he is going to talk to me abt my Common Test Result... ( it was terrible... and when i say terrible... i meant really terrible... ) Feeling really sad over it... i mean yah... it is really no use to study tht hard... evenMr Kwang agrees with me... he said things like... ' whatever you are doing... it is a lot... and apparently... it is not helping you... i see you are hardworking but you appear to be struggling with your 4th A... ' Sniff... i feel so sad... ( it is obvious ok... i mean you shld be when you got terrible grades )
on a brighter note... he promised to let me keep my 4th A until Mid Year... if i appear to be not doing well...then i will be officially a 3 A student...
Band-wise... sigh... steppig down... again... this time it felt different... it was way different from the FTPSS step-down ( i think cos i dun think i bonded there )... aiya... did not bond much either... as long as the next batch and the next QM dun screw up.. i think it is good le... but then... my wed and sat slots will be empty... a sense of being lost is developing... it gets rather depressing sometimes when you realise that you are leaving a great batch of ppl... memories of the past yr keeps flooding... ( though actually this gets boring sometimes... i was telling a few juniors tht last yr band was like a Korean Drama... got crying... got plots etc... haha... it was funny... )
So... it boils down to a few ppl... yah... i m getting a little bit depressed with some ppl... ( dun let them know hor ) i dun mean like i m so angry with you like tht... but... i feel like these ppl are ignoring me a bit... ( something tht i wished they did not... ) no... you will not know who... it is my little secret...
Speaking of secrets... sis read my diary... crap... she knows a lot now...
Ruth smsed today... haha... so funny... ( this is random speech )
OH yah... i was reading taggy... saw this person with mdm mashuda etched in her mind... yah... it suddenly brought back a song she sang... Hero... it was inspiring... i say this again... she was an inspiring teacher... someone you will only see a smile... someone very much as a great listener... a very optismistic person... it still confuses me sometimes... i wonder how did she die from depression... ( this implies tht... WHOEVER CAUSED IT... you are so going to be hated by all the USSS ppl... ) i think it is cos of students... i heard tht it was due to her students... ( SO... YOU BETTER WATCH OUT ) no... i m not going to bash them up... i m going to pity them... since you hve lost a great teacher... and... ( dunnno wat to say le )
I spoke out of turn and nonsense again... going bonkers...
- about me
name; Kenneth Lai
sch; Presently At SRJC
cca; Band
bdae; 24th Dec 1988
Wish List
New Bag
Acuvue Contact Lenses
Miyazawa Flute
Yamaha Piccolo
Buffet RC PrestigeClarinet
Swatch Watch
A Soft Toy ( childish)
A Tarot Deck
A New Mouse ( i meant the com )
A Hamster
Headphones and EarPhones
Divination Set
Advanced Potion Making by Liberius Borge
Literally Hates
liars
backstabbers