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Thursday, March 24, 2005
xx 9:27 PM xx
For the past two days... ( ok wrong yesterday and today)... i was an OGL... ( Orientation Group Leader) and... totally... it was sorta cool... but sorta suck...
Day One : Confusion ( Again )...
Everyone in my OG is dead... totally... began the day with boring boring 2 hr talks... from Philip... Principal... and HODs... so everyone was then dead liao... Conducted icebreakers... but then ... the ice has turned to premafrost... it was tht thick the ice... until i had to be shouting to get attention ( demerit points there) at least they said their names... and all tht... taught cheers... and shouted again ( more demerits)
Yah it was tht boring... totally... if i was a freshman... i would hve just died there... and go for appeal... not bad... after 1330 when the appeal began... half the OG left... haha... good for them...
College dance once up next... yah... not bad lah... at least we finished the dance... so... cool... OGLs were so cool... dancing here and there... haha... and shouting... and the OG Session with Mr Ng... haha... he rox man... haha...
yup... there goes day one...
Day 2 : Ice Melted a bit
Began the day... with... a 5 min talk abt academic timetable.. haha... as though we dunno how to read like tht... then mass dance... and i stood on the platform... cool... i was up there... not on the stage... just on table... at the side of the hall... haha... and i was up there... dancing... so freshman at the back can see me... ( but they were focusing on the councillors and not me...) tht was like so disrespectful... i was so mad... was rather angry liao lor... when one freshman asked me... why are we standing up here blocking their view of the councillor... i was so angry... tht if i did not notice heeru was there... i would hve screamed... tht's right... SCREAM... yes... scold her until she cry for all i care ( more demerit points)
College tour... ( OGL debrief... Heeru was very very angry with it) was average... Boot did the talking... apparently the freshman are taking sides now... they go to her... not me... i dun talk... she talks... yah... 4-5 guys were flirting with her... asking her stupid qns... and when i answer they say ' not asking you lor' i tell you... my emotions were getting the better of me... i was going to break down soon lor... at least on the brighter note... i was like... forget it... life is like tht... at least we did not make any mistakes... boot was not really happy of me being rather dead... i think...
And... the confusion... council did not expect tht when we collected orientation packages after the college tour... we would take this slow... sigh sigh sigh... so... everything was pulled back... a lot... end up i did not do college dance (cry)... took hartasha and sara and deenar around college again... and was just chatting with them...until we went back for dismissal..
sounds rather boring... but today was cool... cos i get to get some attention ( ok maybe not)... not feeling good on one point... just cut myself... was nearly slashing myself to induce pain... yah... was depressed ( one way of me reliving depression ) but then.. i was just scratching myself until i sorta bleed... yah... sigh... dun ask me why i m doing this...
Sounds terrible is it not... for an OGL to be like tht... maygelai was telling me abt tht... sigh...
Miss S1... miss so many ppl... wondering whether is it wrong to hve feelings for someone...
Must go band this sat... sigh sigh sigh.. better go...
- about me
name; Kenneth Lai
sch; Presently At SRJC
cca; Band
bdae; 24th Dec 1988
Wish List
New Bag
Acuvue Contact Lenses
Miyazawa Flute
Yamaha Piccolo
Buffet RC PrestigeClarinet
Swatch Watch
A Soft Toy ( childish)
A Tarot Deck
A New Mouse ( i meant the com )
A Hamster
Headphones and EarPhones
Divination Set
Advanced Potion Making by Liberius Borge
Literally Hates
liars
backstabbers